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Songlight by Moira Buffini: A Book Review

Book Reviews September 13, 2024 Leave a comment

Songlight

 

by Moira Buffini

 

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Genre: Dystopian, Sci-fi, YA
Number of pages: 384
ISBN: 978-0063358218
Format: Hardcover, Audiobook (Audible, CD), eBook (Kobo, Kindle, Nook)
Publication date: September 3rd, 2024
Publisher: HarperCollins
Type: Book, Novel, Series

Series: The Torch Light

 

Huge thanks to HarperCollins CA for a physical ARC of this book. I offer this review willingly and without any compensation whatsoever.

 

This review contains MILD SPOILERS.

 

This book caught my eye because of the title which I find beautiful and positive, as well as the stunning cover. But what really decided me to give it a read was the strong female friendship promoted! I’m always on the lookout for more female friendships that are great, positive, and not toxic or mean. So, I had to request it, and I’m so thrilled HarperCollins Canada granted me a copy!! It was one of my most anticipated reads of the YEAR, and it did not disappoint.

Care to know why?

Come with me for an excursion into Songlight’s world and my love for it.

 

The Positive Points

I HAVE to start with what surprised me positively when I started reading this book. It clearly mentions a girl’s menstruation and I couldn’t be happier for this! Oftentimes, the YA genre overlooks this simple fact, like it’s taboo or bad when it’s only natural. However, I love when it gets acknowledged, because most of us readers and writers agree that literature should speak the truth… Well, menstruation is a girl’s truth, specially taking into account we start our periods as young teens. I always find it ridiculous and unbelievable when the girls are NEVER on their periods, and can go fight or go out on quests like there’s no worries about that… I’m sorry, are you a teenage girl or a cardboard character made to fit the plot? Yeah, that’s what I thought. So, thank YOU, Miss Buffini, for writing a teenager’s menstruation into your book. It pleased me, as it needs to be more talked about if we’re to reflect reality in truthful ways in our literature. Thus, teenage girls can see themselves and their reality in the books they read.

Now, on another topic, I must admit this book ALWAYS has action. There’s always something happening. The characters are complex, determined, and all intriguing in their own way. I never figured out if I sensed them in the room with me while reading or if I felt transported next to them. Either way, that’s some powerful character creation right there.

Moreover, I love that there are many points of view. We can explore more of this dystopian world as well as grasp diverse perspectives.

While I do love both Nightingale and Lark, I am rather fond of Lark (Elsa Crane) for her boldness, her caring, and her strength of character. I really like Heron Mikane as well. They have a similar way of caring about people and situations. They’re also very interesting and complex, multi-layered. However, Nightingale is as sweet as a dove. In my mind, that’s how I picture her. I nicknamed her “Dove”. 🙂

And I have a suggestion for renaming this book! How about The tale of twists? Because honestly, I’ve never read a story with so many twists that twist into subtwists and so on. It’s wonderful and mind-blowing! It’s like each and every twist is twistin’, and I love it!

Plus, when you think the characters’ situations can’t get any worse, it DOES! It’s incredible, wow. I had a few doubts sometimes but I didn’t think the author would dare take it into those directions… yet she did! This a book that just keeps on giving you twists and situations, as well as a few, heartfelt and hopeful moments. Miss Buffini doesn’t shy away from any difficult situations or decisions; she tackles heartbreak, betrayal, feels, pitting family and friends against each other, good and society against evil and selfishness… It’s all so beautiful and wow, the feels I had! I’m thoroughly impressed!

Honestly, this book is a thrilling read! It’s been a very long time since I haven’t read a book as thrilling and entertaining as this. I love the books I read, but while they’re thrilling at certain moments, Songlight is thrilling on every page! Such a feat, wow. Like, I. could. NOT. put. it. down! Impressive!

Lastly, I never thought I’d feel for this character, Piper Crane, but I did at some point. I hate him generally because he betrayed someone important to him and his views are very narrow and limited… However, he hasn’t it easy either. It’s actually quite terrible, because he’s gay in a terribly brutal society that treats gays as less than sh!t and he believes deeply he’s unnatural… Poor Piper is a typical example of what it’s like being brainwashed and afraid to be gay because of society. He wants to prove himself, to be important, and everything. But where he lives, being gay means the exact contrary… So, I have compassion for him and I think that’s a feat, because like I mentioned, his betrayal marked him irredeemable to me, as well as his bootlicking behaviour (although I can see why, he’s been brainwashed and he wants to fit in but he’s really blind and deaf to everyone who loves him, urgh). Yet, I feel strong emotions and sadness for him. Well done, Miss Buffini!

 

The Negative Points

There are many point of views, but they follow no order whatsoever, which is really confusing. For example, the first character has three chapters, after which the second character has one chapter, and then it’s one we didn’t know before that has two chapters, then it’s back to the second one, and right after the author introduces us to a fourth character, then it comes back to the first point of view…

It’s slightly annoying and very confusing, which diminishes a bit the reading experience. I love that it has many point of views, but the lack of order to them mind boggled me a lot of times.

 

In Conclusion

Songlight is a marvelous, thrilling and feelsy read! I recommend it whole-heartedly to lovers of dystopian books, of female friendships, LGBTQ+ readers, and those who crave feels and thrills and drama in their books like I do. I will genuinely read the two other books in the trilogy; it’s now high on my dystopian book list. For all these reasons, despite the point of views that are a bit messy and confusing due to their order, and for all the sheer fun and thrill I had reading this book, I give Songlight a bright rating of 5 stars out of 5. I hope this will be a big sensation, because I feel like it deserves to be!

Cinq

Thank you for reading, as always.

If you want to learn more about the author, Moira Buffini, you can visit her HarperCollins Canada's author page, her Goodreads author page, as well as her IMDb page. Don't forget to add Songlight to your wishlist or your cart as well as your bookshelves! 

 

Reading the Grishaverse: The Correct Reading Order

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The Grishaverse by Leigh Bardugo includes novels (one trilogy and two duologies), a comic book, two short story collections as well as individual short stories. It can be confusing when one wants to start reading in the Grishaverse, but fear not—I have been there, and I’m bringing you the reading order, and answers to some of the most common questions about the Grishaverse! Let’s demystify this together, then you’ll be ready to delve into those books confidently and with much pleasure!

 

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The Most Crucial Question: Can I Read the Six of Crows duology before the Shadow and Bone trilogy?

 

Honestly? I wouldn’t recommend it. Because the powers, the Grisha, the legends and the world are established and described in the Shadow and Bone trilogy. You would miss out on basics such as how the powers and Grisha work, and where is what, and what happened to the Fold…

In other words, you’d be confused.

I get that you want to reach Kaz Brekker and Inej Ghafa (or any other of the Crows, but let’s be real, Kanej—the ship’s name), but it’s best for immersion and comprehension, and your whole experience to start with Shadow and Bone.

Last thing on this question, too: You won’t get the insane fun and thrill when encountering the cameos in SoC (Six of Crows) from the SaB (Shadow and Bone) trilogy. And that would be a shame because it made me giddy to see them again, and I hope you get the same delight.

So, I urge you to read Shadow and Bone, Siege and Storm, and Ruin and Rising before Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom.

 

The Other Most Crucial Question: Can I Jump in Right into the King of Scars duology without Having Read the Six of Crows duology nor the Shadow and Bone trilogy?

 

That would be like jumping straight into Doctor Who with the latest Doctor (I did that many years ago and loved it, but that’s another story)—it’s mind-bogglingly confusing! Or any other series, really! Let’s say you catch a movie at the last 20 minutes; good, you’re there for the conclusion. Of what? With whom? Why? What for?

If you start with the King of Scars duology, it’s the very same—you’ll read the conclusion of the big Grishaverse before knowing anyone or what it’s even about.

So, don’t do that please, you’ll miss out on everything. The references, the characters, the backstory, the purpose of the story, the cameos, the relationships…. You won’t understand much about the characters and their situations, nor be thrilled to see them “again”—because it’s the first time you see them for you. And spoilers! Huge spoilers.

Honestly, be kind to yourself and start by the very beginning, Shadow and Bone.

 

What about the Short Story Collections and Individual Short Stories?

 

The two short story collections are The Lives of Saints and The Language of Thorns.

Personally, I jumped into the Grishaverse by checking out the only book available in the series at my library (all the others were checked out!): The Language of Thorns. It’s such a magnificent collection of stories about Grishaverse legends and myths! It was a fantastic introduction to that world. And while I couldn’t get all the little references, it didn’t hinder my reading—they’re not necessary to understand the stories and immerse yourself in the sheer beauty of this book. Besides Shadow and Bone, this collection, The Language of Thorns, would be another good way to enter the Grishaverse.

The Lives of Saints is quite special. It’s a reproduction of the Grishaverse’s book of Sains for uyour pleasure to read. It’s like holding a piece of their world in your hands. However, since it features saints (i. e. Grisha) found in the first trilogy of Shadow and Bone, and that they’re quite important spoilers about who they are and other references, I would suggest to wait before reading this collection. Read the first trilogy, then venture into The Lives of Saints safely.

As for the short stories, The Demon in the Wood, The Tailor, and The Witch of Duva, they’re available both as ebooks or with certain editions of the books.

For full effect, I recommend reading The Demon in the Wood after the Shadow and Bone trilogy for a maximum of feels and realizations. Otherwise, The Tailor can be read after the first SaB book, and The Witch of Duva is a companion to the first SaB so I suggest reading it after the first book as well.

Speaking of The Demon in the Wood, it’s also available as a comic book!

 

The Correct Reading Order of the Grishaverse

 

Now, with all we’ve learned about the Grishaverse, here is the correct order for reading the books (according to yours truly):

 

(The Language of Thorns, to your choice, or start with:)

 

1- Shadow and Bone

1.2 – The Witch of Duva

1.3 – The Tailor

2- Siege and Storm

3- Rise and Ruin

3.1 – The Demon in the Wood

4- The Lives of Saints

5- Six of Crows

6- Crooked Kingdom

7- King of Scars

8- Rule of Wolves

 

(And you can end with The Language of Thorns, if ever you didn’t start with it.)

 

In Conclusion

 

Phew! That was quite the adventure, right? But fear not, Grisha, you’re now ready and set to explore the Grishaverse. In the end, it’s best to start at the beginning and follow the order of the major novels, with the short story collections and individual short stories interspersed between them.

Are you looking forward to a particular book or character in the series? Did you find this article useful for your reading experience?

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How to Decorate Your Kindle eReader

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A few weeks ago, I stumbled across many Instagram reels and Youtube videos (such as this one by ItsRissa and that one from asmr rifa) about ladies who'd decorated their Kindles. How amazed I was! While I did like my pale pink flap case, I thought it lacked images and theme. And here was the solution!

So, how about we decorate your Kindle eReader together?

 

Materials

This project doesn't require many tools nor materials, but it does need for you to make a certain purchase (a transparent case).

Here's the stuff you'll need:

 

The Steps

First, I looked up images (pictures, illustrations, collages) I liked on Pinterest. Two of my stickers are made by Casthavian, No Mourners No Funerals and Na Rasrusha'ya E'ya Razrushost (which is a favorite of mine!) Then, I printed and cut them.

If you've got a sticker machine like I do, just pass them through the process right now. If you don't, we'll use glue a bit later.

I recommend trying out different compositions with the images on the carton before applying the glue or turning them into stickers.

Now, with our images printed and cut, we take the pair of scissors and the thin carton you chose to your liking.

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Next, we do a superpositioned fitting of the cardboard into the case, then we cut according to said dimensions so it fits inside. As you can see, I cut the thin carton according to the size of the Kindle case (I left a bit of room so you could see what I did), approximately to the correct size. You can use a ruler if you want to be more precise than me.

Once that's done, that's where the glue comes in and you stick your images in a pattern that suits your taste. If you have the stickers made with the machine, you just use those.

Lastly, you add small stickers you like such as stars, plants, cats… And you insert the carton into the case, then put your Kindle on it. Et voilà!

 

Summary of the steps:

1- Look up images you like on Pinterest and other such sites

2- Print the images and cut them

3- Try out different compositions with the images over the transparent case

4- Superposition the carton to the Kindle case and cut according to its dimensions

5- Make the stickers with the Sticker machine

6- Stick your images

7- Use your cute stickers

8- Insert the thematic carton in the case, face towards the plastic case.

9- Put your Kindle on it

10- YAY! 😀 You've got yourself a decorated Kindle case to your liking!

 

The Result

Now, you should have a sweet (or fire!)-looking Kindle eReader! Mine is Grishaverse-themed with pairings, characters, quotes, and colours I like.

 

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You can also see it in the background of my Crooked Kingdom (by Leigh Bardugo) bookstagram. I think it came out quite pretty and exactly like I wanted for a thematic case!

What's yours? What theme or book did you choose to display?

Tell me how it went. Did you have trouble decorating your Kindle or was it a breeze?

See you next post, lovelies!

What You Are Looking For Is In The Library: A Book Review

Book Reviews December 27, 2023 Leave a comment

What you are looking for

By Michiko Aoyama

 

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Genre: Fiction, Contemporary, Magical Realism

Pages: 304

ISBN: 9781335005625

ASIN: B0BT82YGGF

Audio ASIN: B0C78VF5RX

Format: Hardcover, eBook (Kindle, Kobo, Nook), Audiobook (Audible, Kobo, B&N Audiobooks)

Publication date: September 5, 2023

Publisher: Hanover Square Press

Type: Book, Japanese Literature, Short Story Collection

Translated: Yes (From Japanese to English)

Original Title: お探し物は図書室まで

 

** I received a physical ARC in exchange for an honest review. No compensation has been given and I write this book review willingly. A big thanks to HCC Frenzy and Hanover Square Press! **

 

Introduction

 

When I participated in Frenzy Presents: Fall Preview 2023 by Harper Collins Canada, What you are looking for is in the library by Michiko Aoyama caught my eye. Thankfully, we could request it—and so, of course, I did!

Speaking Japanese myself and loving their culture, as well as being a sucker for comfort and meaningful fiction reads all related to libraries and books, this book was one I couldn’t wait to read.

Not only was I NOT disappointed, I was also quite surprised in the best ways possible. This short story collection is deep, poignant, cozy, and worth the time spent reading for the sheer pleasure and comfort it brings as well as how unique it is.

Want to know what I think of it in detail? Keep reading! 😀

 

読書は趣味です.

– Reading is my hobby.

(Pronunciation in romaji: Dokusho wa shumi desu.)

 

 

 

The Positive Points

 

This book about reading and libraries is so sweet and comfy; it revolves around finding one’s place and happiness in the world. How to belong when you feel like you don’t. Truth is I was looking forward to resume reading this book every morning during a difficultly emotional week. It was part of a few good things of those days. Which, I find, quite sweet considering the themes of this book as being cozy, comfy, and finding one’s happiness and place in the world. This story is genuinely soft, warm, charming, meaningful, and satisfying. This book feels like a perfect read for autumn and winter (which I’m in now) with a hot cocoa or coffee, a blanket, sitting in your favorite spot! It’s cozy like autumn and winter; not an “easy read” like summer vibes. Both are great, but this one is special, in my opinion.

 

Moreover, this book is so real and genuine with thoughts and feelings of all sorts, including some we deem as negative or shameful. It's like a small sliding door into our inner worlds and private thoughts. 

 

Also, I love love love that it’s just so Japanese in an easygoing, natural way. The food, the customs (bowing while saying goodbye), the behaviors, etc. (like the Hatori ward; Japan is divided in wards within prefectures), and Japanese words here and there written in romaji, are wonderful. I know the author is Japanese, but it could still be overexplained or not seem so natural, yet she writes in a compelling, flowing manner. You can’t help but go with the flow and just find it familiar and wonderful at the same time.

The author includes Japanese brands despite the presence of similar American brands—in the 4th story, there is the Croquis sketchbook mentioned. She could have used a “Canson sketchbook”, which is highly popular, but I loved that she went with the Japanese one. Everything in this cozy book is Japanese. So lovely! I wondered why she had said “Croquis sketchbook” as here we only say “sketchbook” for anglophones or “carnet de croquis” (notice de “croquis”? it’s French!), so I was confused as why she’d used the word “croquis” as there is no French in here book… I had a hunch it was for a brand, so I looked it up and indeed, it’s a popular sketchbook brand! The Croquis series is made by Maruman.

 

The Negative Points

 

Truth is you can’t like all main characters in the stories. And it’s okay; but they’re all so widely different, they’re believable. And obviously, there will be one you will like less than the others. For me, it was the fourth main character. However, it’s not a negative point per se as it means it’s well-written, but just know you might read one with a bit of groaning.

You know when you read through a series with multipov and you get to a chapter told by the character you just don’t like? Yeah, like that.

In the end, the 4th story is the one I liked least. Not because of the writing or the story itself, but because of the main character, Hiroya. That guy is soooooo annoying and stupid; Hiroya got under my skin, he grated on my nerves so bad. But it’s a good thing he did! Why? Because it shows the author is talented; otherwise, he would have just been bland, but no, she wrote him so well and consistently miserable and not very smart, that he annoyed me greatly. Kudos to the author for her skill!

The fifth story is satisfactory and works as a closure in many ways. Throughout the short stories, we meet a diverse cast of secondary characters and then we meet them again in the next story or the one after. And each time we meet one of them again, they provide us with an answer to one of the question their presence had raised in the story we first met them. Because yes, their impact or background or even future raises questions—you can’t help wondering about them as to why, how, what for, etc.—and it’s nice to get their answers peppered throughout the stories but with other main characters. The nicest touch though is how all the main questions—you’ll see for yourself ;)—are answered in the very last story. It brings the whole book to a good, satisfactory closure. Also, I think the age and meaning sought by the last character brings it to a closure too in its own way, since the first MC was a young adult, and the last one a retired man. It’s as though the book is structured as a overarching story instead of very separate short stories. In many ways, they all intertwine and affect the other, like in real life. It is beautiful, and I had never seen a short story collection be written in such a way: with a narrative arc in each, an overarching story, and side characters you meet and meet again through a different character’s eyes throughout the stories. And, bonus points for the answers you get gradually!

 

In Conclusion

 

Thanks to this short story collection being so comfy, sweet, about reading and libraries, and finding one’s place and happiness in the world throughout our lifetime, I give What you are looking for is in the library by Michiko Aoyama a solid rating of 5 out of 5 stars!!!

In addition to having a good time, I also found a new Japanese author to read! This is her first book translated into English, but I love it so much, I will definitely pick up her other books in Japanese!

Cinq

If you want to learn more about the author, you can visit her page on Harper Collins website, you can also follow him on Amazon author page and Goodreads. You can also add What you are looking for is in the library to your bookshelves on Goodreads and LibraryThing.

 

Treacherous Notion by Linnea March: Book Tour with Romance me with Books & Book Review

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This will sound a tad bit weird, but I'm not one for rock star romance or anything of the sorts. However, the cover is striking, and the bit about best friend love caught my attention.

Having never read such a rock star romance, I figured it seemed like the perfect time to delve into the sub-genre! And I wasn't wrong. 🙂

As a Book Tour Stop for Romance me with Books, I'm pleased to present Treacherous Notion by Linnea March as well as my review of the book. 

Keep reading, love!

 

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Now, what's so different about this book?

And what is this book about, anyway?

I'm so glad you asked!

 

Here's the blurb:

 

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I must admit the tropes are awesome. A cinnamon roll hero? I'm in. A friends-to-lovers story? Perfect! Child free by choice? I support that. It's a wise and acceptable decision when both parties involved agree. If that is fine with them, I'm fine with it.

And now, a round of applause for:

 

THE BOOK REVIEW

 

* I received an e-ARC of this book and I write this review willingly, without any compensation whatsoever. Thank you to Linnea March and Romance me with Books! *

 

The humour in this book is amusing, light and quite realistic when you take in the rock star aspect. Like his little sister stumbling upon him shirtless in a magazine–i mean, the horror for a teenage girl, ha! It's hilarious!

Also, I love how Ilsa's decision to not have babies/children is described. It is honest, but very kind. It's not as if you cannot like said babies/children to not want to have them yourself. You can like them and still say no. That description is genuine and not mean, and I love it.

Plus, I love how Nathan thinks he isn't "jealous" or "protective" of Ilsa, but whenever other guys say things like "Ilsa is normal hot", that gets Nathan upset and defensive, which is both sweet and hilarious. He's cute too, how he loves and values their friendship… He truly is a cinnamon roll hero. He is lovely, and I wasn't disappointed!

The only negative point is minor: sometimes there are several repetitions of a word within two paragraphs here and there, and it's annoying. But it's nothing heavy.

All in all, the best part of this book (besides the romance, I mean, and the spicy scenes ;)) is how humane and well-developed the characters are. They have all these feelings and emotions and thoughts and righteousness and desires… it's amazing. Like we all wonder sometimes and all fight inner fights about different stuff; sometimes we want something but fight against it, anyhow–just like Ilsa and Nathan. I love their depth. That is truly the highest point of this book, which makes you care about them and you're cheering them on and going on this roller coaster ride of feels and expectations and twists and highs and lows. Very nice. I loved loving them? Yeah, that's what I wanna say. 🙂

Obviously, I will stay tuned for Linnea March's upcoming similar books (either rockstar or Hollywood-inspired romances) as I really enjoy her writing, and well, I might just have discovered a new pleasant sub-genre for me. 🙂

For all the fun I had reading this book, and all the squeals and gasps I uttered with these characters, I give it a rating of 5 stars out of 5. I highly recommend it to romance readers looking for a good time and a lot of sweet feelings, and a great depth of characters. 

Cinq

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Blog Tour with Excerpt: This is Not a Horror Movie by Sara Dobie Bauer

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Book Title: This is Not a Horror Movie

Author: Sara Dobie Bauer

Publisher: Self-published

Cover Artist: Natasha Snow Designs

Release Date: May 13, 2021

Genres: m/m new adult, gay paranormal romance, LGBTQ, romantic comedy

Trope: Friends to lovers

Themes: non-explicit, humorous, teens, Florida, summer vacation, hauntings, evil spirits

Heat Rating:  2 flames

*Warnings: Scenes of graphic violence, death of minor characters, mentions of bullying, alcohol use*

Length:  78 000 words

ASIN: B0947FHW74

Format: ebook (Kindle)

It is a standalone story.

 

I want to thank Lily, Gay Book Promotions, and Sara Dobie Bauer for letting me take part in this blog tour! 🙂 I enjoyed collaborating with them, and we need more promotions about LGBT+ stories. ^.^ So, I'm glad I could help make a small change in the way of things.

Now, enough with the blah blah, you probably want to know what this horror book (exactly, it's NOT a horror movie ;)) is about. Well, you can read the blurb below, and behold, an excerpt, too! :O

I hope you enjoy it. 

Happy reading, loves!

 

Blurb

Emory Jones loves two things: horror movies and Connor Nichols. 

For the past four years, Emory, Connor, and their families have vacationed side by side on Longboat Key, Florida. Eighteen-year-old Emory has pined for his neighbor from behind the covers of Stephen King books, but college boy Connor has never noticed him. Probably because Emory looks like Jack Skellington with good hair.

Emory anticipates another predictable summer of sunburn and disappointment. Instead, he ends up with a mystery on his hands when a beloved beach bum goes missing, and Connor volunteers to help with the search. Turns out it’s not just scary movie cops who are worthless, so the boys start an investigation of their own—leading them straight to an abandoned beach resort.

Despite the danger, Emory and Connor grow closer, but as Emory’s gay dreams start coming true, so do the horror movie tropes he so loves. Even though he knows that sex equals death in slasher flicks, Emory can’t keep his hands off the guy of his teenage dreams.

 

Excerpt

I’m about to follow a mysterious rat into the darkness when a hand lands on my shoulder. I suck a panicked gasp in through my lips as Connor says, “Sorry! Sorry.”

I put my hands on my knees and relearn breathing.

He stands there, backlit like some kind of hot angel, and shrugs. “Maybe you should be thanking me.”

“What?”

“You like to be scared,” he says.

He’s right. Haunted house in the neighborhood? I’m first. Spooky cemetery? Coming through. Maybe that’s part of the reason I always let Liz drag me to parties at the Outpost. It feels like being in a scary movie. I’m waiting for Leatherface to show up and murder the morally reprehensible youth. Of course, if horror movie rules are true, I’m totally dead. I lost my virginity at sixteen and more often than not spend “happy hour” sharing malt liquor with Longboat’s famous homeless dude, Leland.

“What are you doing over here?” Connor asks.

“Befriending local wildlife.” I glance over my shoulder into the dark. I shove hair out of my face—a nervous tic I’ve acquired since growing it out. Because I needed another nervous tic. “What are you doing over here?”

“Talking to you.” He grins, but I can feel a disconnect. 

Connor and I have always had a mutually agreed upon rhythm. He’s the big, gorgeous straight dude who puts up with me, the skinny, little gay kid. 

Well. 

No one knows I’m gay down here. Florida is for family, not fu— Anyway.

In summers past, Connor wrestled me and tickled me, and I pretended not to like it. We talked about some things, mostly scary movies, but kept an emotional distance. He accepts me being a drama queen, and I never let him know I would climb Everest for his kiss. 

Staring at me with a dumb look on his face is not our rhythm.

I finally lose my shit. “Jesus, am I bleeding from my eyes?”

He coughs out a laugh. “What?”

“You’re looking at me funny.”

He looks away. “Oh.”

I cross my arms. I have, in fact, filled out a lot since last summer—and the lifeguarding helps—but I’m still self-conscious about my small frame and will probably never forget the jocks calling me “Tinker Bell” from seventh to tenth grade. I press my lips together and side-eye the kids dancing to some club beat on Liz’s phone. “Everyone’s looking at me funny, actually.”

Connor clears his throat and plucks at the front of his tight, white T-shirt. He looks like he wants to dive headfirst into the empty pool at his back.

“You don’t have to talk to me, you know.”

His blue eyes flit back my way. Even in the dark, I know they’re blue. He says, “But I like talking to you.”

I hug myself tighter and lift a shoulder. “Seen any good horror movies lately?”

His smile is back. “Tons. I saw this French one called Raw.”

I bounce up on my toes. “Cannibals! Oh my God, that movie was so good! The writing.” I tear at my hair in euphoric bliss.

He nods. “And the scene with the roommate.”

“And the ending!” I poke him in the chest. “Dude, I tried to get Liz to watch it. She’s all vegetarian now because she dated this hippie dude senior year. She said she gave up meat for her health, but I think it’s because he said he tasted death in her mouth.”

Connor does the silent open-mouth laugh thing that happens when my storytelling reaches peak levels of absurd. 

“She made it thirty minutes into the movie before she had to leave the room and vomit. Meanwhile, I was sitting there eating, like, spaghetti.”

He puts his hand on my shoulder as he keeps laughing. I smell his deodorant: sporty man stuff. “I can’t believe I almost didn’t come this year.”

That steals the air from my lungs. Sure, I should be avoiding the guy, looking forward to the future, but all of a sudden, I can’t imagine a summer without Connor Nichols making me blush.

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Sara Dobie Bauer is a bestselling romance author and mental health / LGBTQ advocate with a creative writing degree from Ohio University. She lives with her hottie husband and precious pup in Northeast Ohio, although she’d really like to live in a Tim Burton film.

 

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